Between The Sand & Stone

Bitter

2009-09-08T22:31:00.002+08:00

Wow. It's been 5 weeks since my last post. What a lazy person I was and still am. No, maybe I wasn't lazy. Maybe I was busy with my daily job as an intern at Kuala Krai District Health Office. Haha.

Almost 2 months already, stuck in this place. And I must say that I'm pretty comfortable being here. Also with the H1N1 cases were revolving around me last month in which I refused to get involved, for I was afraid I might get infected. Aha. So I was hanging around another departments in the district health office. The best thing is, I get to go home on weekends to my family. Being friends with almost all hot blooded males at the workplace. Oh I forgot to tell you that 98% employees at the health office are males. And 96% of those males are twice my age, and married with several kids. I swear, it is quite fun though, talking, laughing and hanging out with those guys.

Did I find someone attractive here? Of course, but he is taken (has a girlfriend already lol). I have tried on him and it worked somehow but I felt I had to back off. Coz I hate messing with someone else's boyfriend. And no, I didn't cry at all.

And now I'm in the middle of Ramadhan, the fasting month for Muslims. In less than 2 weeks, we will celebrate the Eid ul-Fitr, and I haven't prepare anything for the celebration. Normally people would buy new clothes for the celebration, and in some cases everything in the house should be new. The curtains, cushion covers, couches, tables, and sometimes the house will get a new paintjob. As in my case, well I'm gonna celebrate it with my family without too much hassle or new things. As long as my family is there, that is enough.

I think that's all for now. Please excuse my terrible grammar. See ya next time.

Pronto

2009-07-31T23:19:00.003+08:00

1. I checked myself into District Health Office of Kuala Krai on July 20 which was also my nephew's 9th birthday.

2. Am glad with the surroundings and almost all people there are very friendly and welcoming.

3. Me and other 3 girls were placed temporarily at the Communicable Disease Control (CDC) Unit. We didn't do anything except laughing and joking with the CDC officers for 2 weeks while sorting out those Typhoid, Rubella, TB patients' files.

4. Not to mention that the place are male dominated. Some middle aged married guys were trying to flirt with me but they had to face my ignorance. Blah. I guess I have to tell everyone that I'm gay/lesbian or something. Haha.

5. Kuala Krai is a relatively a small town. Has some small supermarkets and sadly no bowling centre and also no cinema. Guess I have to miss out some great movies until April next year.

6. There have been several H1N1 cases in Kuala Krai. I haven't been able to go check them out because the CDC officers were concerned in case of us getting infected.

7. What else about my new place? I guess that's all.

8. My sister and her family just came back from Scotland for a 2-month break. Can't wait to see em!

9. I'll have to go to a health education program tomorrow morning in a high school somewhere in the area. The program is called Prostar.

10. That's all for now. See you soon.

Tiara.

Moving Out

2009-07-17T04:30:00.003+08:00

It is 5.15 am in the morning and I'm still wide awake. Well, it is because I haven't finished packing up my stuff. Am gonna move in to new place today.

Let me clarify the situation. Kuala Lumpur is the capital of Malaysia. I have been staying here for almost 2 years, which is near to my college. And this is my final year of study and I have finished studying the theory of the course, which is Environmental Health. So to complete the final year, I have to undergo a practical training program for 8 months at a district health office. I will be posted at a district health office in Kuala Krai which is in my home state, Kelantan. Boy, am I glad because I had pulled some rough strings for the sake of getting that place. Although the place is about 2-hour drive from my home sweet home. That doesn't concern me much though. I can always go home on weekends.

A bus will come and pick me up on 7 am. I still haven't figure out how to pack my stuff properly. Where to put this, where to put that. Should I bring along that thing or this thing etc. How am I gonna get those boxes down to the ground level from my 26th floor apartment? We'll see.

I'm gonna be offline for a few days until I get a proper internet connection at my new place. Til then, I wish you guys all the best for your life!

See you soon.

Tiara.

Bad Week

2009-07-02T00:00:00.003+08:00

I haven't been able to update my blog for so long. Because I had so much things on my mind. College, money, college, money, homesick, laziness, and so on. I felt like I haven't got anything to keep me motivated in doing certain things, including blogging. And guess what, I had such a bad mood last week and come this week, the negative vibes are still around.

What happened last week could be the worst thing ever happened to any owner of a personal computer or laptop. My laptop's hard disk broke down on Wednesday. Took it to a computer shop on Thursday and the repair guy told me to take it to Acer's Service Centre to get the hard disk replaced for free. And yes, my laptop is still under warranty so I took it to the service centre. Guess what, the service centre personnel told me that I couldn't claim the free service under the warranty because my laptop was bought in UK and it could get free service only in UK. I was like, "WTF?". I was so shocked when I read the Acer's warranty policy. After making several calls to the Acer Hotline, I finally surrendered. And I ended up paying all the repair cost. There goes my monthly allowance down the drain. I wouldn't buy any other Acer's product anymore in the future.

I'll start serving as an intern in a district health office somewhere in Malaysia this end of July. I was hoping that I can get posted somewhere in my hometown or my home state but I couldn't. Some bastards took my dream place first so I guess I'll end up somewhere I don't know and don't want. And so I think those things that I mentioned above are the reasons why there are so much negative vibes in my life right now. I will try to make things better tomorrow, and I hope you guys will pray for my best. See you guys soon.

p/s: Oh look, my grammar sucks. And I'm such a bad-mouthed girl. Forgot to mention that I yelled several times to the Acer's Hotline's operator.

Tiara.

My Super Boy

2009-06-14T20:14:00.003+08:00

In 2008, he would always make this facial expression whenever we wanted to take his pictures. And he would never got tired of getting his hands on the car steering wheel.

As for the year 2009, and at the age of 2, I don't know how he managed to make another cute but funny face. Presenting the new trademark of my 4th nephew, El Arshad. Face of 2009.

Tiara.

An Open Letter To My "Dead" Phone

2009-06-13T03:34:00.003+08:00

Dear Nokia 6600...

Where should I begin? How do I begin?

You were about RM600++ when I bought you in 2005. And I wasn't your first owner. I could be the second. Could be the third. And now, no one would ever buy you from me. Not even for RM50.

You took many award-winning photos. Well, okay, the self-admitted award-winning photos.

You are older than four of my five nephews. My first nephew used to throw you down the floor, just like a bowling ball. And yet you were still going strong.

You stood by me while I went from one relationship to another.

You kept on helping me communicate with people, good people and even the jerkiest ones.

You were always attracting my nephews' attention. Had to let them hold you but with your keypad locked though.

You had Pocket Oxford Dictionary installed on you. And that made me love you even more. Recently, I installed the Medical Dictionary on you and it was so much handy for me. You made me proud and also my friends were so jealous of me.

You were the reason why I never went out looking for another phone. Not to mention also because of I had always been out of money.

You made me restless. For the time being, I am more restless. Because I'm so out of money and I have no phone.

I am much much more restless without the Pocket Oxford Dictionary.

And much much much more restless because all my friends' numbers are stored on you. And I can't turn you on at all.

Why did you have to go and make things so complicated?

Tiara.

May's Top Entrecard Droppers

2009-06-01T15:51:00.014+08:00

Presenting my top supporters for the month of May. Check out these cool sites!

Considering that this is my first time posting the Top Entrecard Droppers entry, I guess it doesn't look too bad right? LOL. Anyway, million thanks to all droppers. Keep on dropping. See ya.

Tiara.

New Moon Official Trailer

2009-06-01T12:47:00.001+08:00

Can't wait to see this movie!

Bestest Girlfriends Award

2009-05-26T10:21:00.005+08:00

I was nominated for this award, and out of nowhere, I won it. Haha. Actually, it was Nadira who gave me this award. I'm soo grateful to accept this award and I'll also have to give this award away to some cool girls below:

Nadira - We 1st met at a bowling centre in Batu Pahat, Johor, Malaysia. I was with my friend and she was there with her boyfriend, Cecil Visigoth. And no, we didn't click immediately until one day I met her in the university campus (Oh yeah, she was in the same Uni) and I went to stay in her room. She treated me so good, and until now I still don't know why. But anyway, I think she is one of the sweetest person you can ever find in the world. (No, it is not a bodek OK?)
Eryn - Was my classmates for 1 year and a half in the uni. Also used to be my roommate. I was technically the worst roommate ever, and yet she could hold on. Best friend who would help me anytime, and I still owe her some money right?
My only sister. Sure, we had some ups and downs, but we are sisters no matter what.
My mummy. My loyal chatting partner. My domestic diva. My personal brand of best chef. My everything.
Era - My childhood friend. My playmate. My partner in crime. Long time ago.
Wanie - My classmates in school. Also used to be my partner in crime. And now, she is counting the days to her wedding, probably on December.
Sharifah - My protege, starting from 2003 until now. She has such a big respect towards me and would always give me a credit for anything she has done. Now a nursing student in one of hundreds nursing colleges in Malaysia.

Hmm.. I think that's all. See you soon!

Happy 2nd Birthday Baby!

2009-05-19T00:51:00.006+08:00

Hello again everybody, today is my nephew's 2nd birthday. His name is El Arshad Mohammed and was born on May 19th, 2007 (of course). Too bad, I won't be around near him today. We are about 284 miles apart (according to Google Earth). Yeah, he is in Kota Bharu while I'm in Kuala Lumpur. But I'm sure will gonna see him later on this end of month.

Latest update from me, I had signed up for a Paypal account. That is because I'm interested in cashing out my EC credits. Haha. Nope. Actually it is for online trade purposes, such as selling or buying online and also for transferring money in case someone is generous enough to give me some money.. LOL. Also, I have activated my Twitter account, so if you ever feel like following me (and my updates), please feel free to do so.

Oh, I feel so lazy to go to classes nowadays! Especially the Environmental Health Legislation class. I have to learn everything about law subject and I feel like a lawyer or Magistrate already! FYI, I'm taking 2 subjects this semester, and the other one is Occupational Safety and Health (OSHA). I love the OSHA subject better... :-)

That's all for the quick update. I wanna wish my darling Arshad a very cheerful Happy Birthday and hope to see him later. Auntie Tiara loves you! xoxo.

Tiara.

Birthday Ramblings

2009-05-16T11:54:00.000+08:00

Well, yesterday was 15th of May, my big brother's 23rd birthday. And well, today is 22nd of mine. Normally, people would have something planned on their very Birthday. But not me. LOL.

I'm just gonna lay low at my crib today. That's because I had pretty much enjoyed hanging out with my homegirls at one of the biggest shopping mall in Kuala Lumpur yesterday We went to Midvalley Megamall to watch movies and have some high cholesterol fastfood. But the highlight of the day was playing bowling. I won the game against 3 of my friends. 2 strikes and some spares.. that was quite good I think. And we watched the new movie, Push.

For the record, I have watched about 5 or 6 movies this month alone. Let's see:

1. Paul Blart: The Mall Cop
2. X-Men Origins: Wolverine
3. Push
4. Bohsia: Jangan Pilih Jalan Hitam (Malay movie)
5. Star Trek
6. The Fast and Furious 4

Oh well, I didn't believe I had extra time for those movies. Usually, I would watch either 1 or 2 movies per month. But anyways, who cares?

When I got back home, I found a wedding invitation on the table. That is from an acquitance from college. The wedding is to be held on 4th of June. And then there is more, from my a friend from my former university. And then I also heard one of my schoolmates is getting engaged in the end of the month. Oh seems like everyone's getting hitched. So fast eh? Or is it only me who is lagging behind all of them? 50% positive I think.

But anyways, let's look at the brighter side OK? Haha I will keep telling it to myself. Meanwhile, I have planned to watch these movies in the future. My June to-watch list:

1. 17 Again
2. Transformers: Revenge of The Fallen
3. I Love You..Man
4. what else? Suggestions please.

That's all for today's ramblings. Happy Birthday to myself. Eh, also Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers in the world. Yeah, May 16th is the Malaysian Teacher's Day. :-)

Tiara.

Full Throttle

2009-05-13T02:24:00.004+08:00

Look at my broadband connection! So good! Thanks to the new modem. Haha.

Tiara.

Real Saver

2009-05-08T23:21:00.005+08:00

This is my new USB broadband modem, got it on Thursday. I found it online and it cost me RM 210. That is quite a bargain for a new unit. I'm so happy with the performance compared to my previous modem. By the way, the previous modem had been sold to a nice lady, also through online for a nice price. I guess it wasn't meant for me :-( ... and I hope the modem will work just fine with the new owner. Funny thing was, I was thinking to increase the price after I watched the lady came to my apartment on a gorgeous Toyota Fortuner. My friends also said so, but I didn't do it.

And now, I just need to think of paying the bills! Oh yes, that is my new Acer Aspire One netbook and also new pink bedsheet! :-)

Tiara.

Lazy May

2009-05-03T03:16:00.002+08:00

Hello again, everybody! Well, less than 2 weeks ago I thought I would be able to update my blog regularly as I had signed up for a broadband internet connection. I spent about RM300 on the registration while I was on the semester break back at my hometown then. And I should say that the broadband connection back at my hometown was quite good, but when I came back to my apartment here in Kuala Lumpur, the connection just sucked. One of my friends said that it had to do with the height of my location. I'm staying in 26th floor of an apartment which stands on one of the highest areas in Kuala Lumpur. My friend claimed that it was also because of my cheap modem and I couldn't agree more with him because my housemate happens to use a different modem but her internet connection is just good compared to mine. So this is what I'm going to do, I will go and get the same modem which my housemate is using.

I'm currently in 6th semester now, and boy I'm so glad because I only have 2 subjects to face this semester. I got lots of time to rest and also for badminton session on 5.30 pm everyday. And also this 16th of May will be my 22nd birthday. I should get myself a very nice gift (LOL). Ah, let's not talk about it.

I think I'm gonna go out today, maybe I'll catch a movie or buy a new book; my usual routines, you know. Thinking of watching Wolverine, because one of my friends highly recommended the movie. Last Tuesday, I watched Paul Blart: The Mall Cop and it was very hilarious. Have you watched the movie? Go watch it, it will make your day. :-)

Tiara.

Rest In Peace, Old Lady.

2009-04-14T01:44:00.004+08:00

My grandmother passed away peacefully 2 nights ago. I was informed by my brother last night. Hmm, I was quite shocked. I know she was kind of sick lately, but I never got any chance to see her. I can't remember when was the last time we saw each other. Probably it was on last October, on Eid-ul-Fitr day. Yeah, seriously. And technically, she wasn't my grandmother because actually she was my father's aunt. But I was told that she was the one who raised my father, and I guess that was the reason why she was close to my family.

I had told myself that I wasn't gonna cry or think much about her because I'm on final exam week right now. In fact my mother didn't want to inform me about her death because she didn't want me to lose focus on my exam. I have to admit that I cried a little bit. Because I had a slightly special bond with her. I used to spend 1 week living with the 80++ year old lady and that was the time we got closer and closer. I remember she always asked me to massage her old bony body and she told me that I was a good masseur. I was surprised with the compliment because I didn't have any professional training whatsoever. And exactly 3 days ago, my mother told me that the old lady was sick and she wanted me to take care of her during my 1-week semester break. It was a personal request from her and I just agreed. In fact, I had it all planned well. I was going to shut myself off in the semester break for the sake of being with her. Sadly, she couldn't afford to wait for me.

I hope she will know that I miss her so much and how I regret that I didn't see her for such a long time. May Allah SWT will bless her soul. Rest in peace, Granny.

Now playing: The Fray - How To Save A Life. & Coldplay - Fix You.

Tiara.

And Yet Another...

2009-04-13T02:40:00.000+08:00

What can I say?! I haven't finished the first and foremost books (The Twilight Series), and yet I go around highlighting another new books to people. Anyway, no one can blame the fact that The Twilight Series are not "real" books. They are only E-Books, which made me so lazy to turn on my laptop and read them. Shameful.

I bought this book last week, at the same place and the same price of the previous book, Pick Me Up. Also from the same publication as well. What attracted me to this book was it's title. HOW TO SLEEP WITH A MOVIE STAR. How cool is that? I don't even open the book yet, because I had promised myself to finish the previous book first.

The title sounds promising. No, I'm not actually looking forward to score a sleep-with-a-movie-star package. I just want to amuse myself with a nice, enjoyable read. This and the previous books sound like they have lots of humor to offer, and yeah, I love that.

One more thing, I'll be sitting for my final exam starting today until Friday. And I may gonna be unable to do my EC droppings routine. But to other loyal EC droppers, please continue dropping on my page. I'll be back soon. Thanks and have a nice day.

Tiara.

New Book

2009-03-30T02:24:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna sit for the Disease Control subject test today. Wish me luck everybody!

Also, I wanna share my newly-bought book, Pick Me Up by Zoe Rice. I bought it at RM19.90, so that is quite cheap for me. I haven't start reading it yet, due to lack of free time. Anyway, if you would like to check the book out, please visit the Little Black Dress books website.

Sorry for the sloppy update. Will try to come up with a proper update soon!

Tiara.

New Commitment

2009-03-18T15:52:00.003+08:00

I finally noticed that my life is a little bit boring right now. I don't go out as much as I used to. I also noticed that for the past few weekends, I was found hanging out at home. Yes, hanging out and doing my usual routine; waking up, going to classes, back to home and eating and sleeping and watching TV, getting online and sleeping - back to back. Man, that is so boring. And so I'm gonna change it.

After giving much thoughts about this matter, I'm gonna do something that I never done before; reading a set of novels. It is not that I never read novels before, in fact I love novels but I just didn't have the heart to spend my money on them. Averagely quoting, a novel would cost me about RM40.00. That is quite a lot of money, for me. The least thing that I could do is to go to a used books store and I'll find some decent novels there for some decent price.

But this time, I won't be checking the used books store because I have found a very appropriate set of novels for me to read... The Twilight Saga books. Just the perfect start for me, as the set contains 4 super thick books. I downloaded the e-books and no, it is not gonna stop there. I'm gonna buy those books later. I have watched the movie and I love it. You should love it as well.

So now, for the next few months, I have a new commitment and I'm gonna stick to it. I also would love to hear your opinions, such as what other great novels out there. Please share with me, because you know that sharing is caring. :-)

Tiara.

Sick Puppy.. I am.

2009-02-21T01:14:00.003+08:00

I don't know why I suddenly have this strange feeling since last Thursday. Since I met him. Hey no, I actually met him every Thursday. I will not tell how, because I'm afraid he will come across this blog. I don't want him to know because I'm fully convinced that he is in different league and he would ignore me. Thus, this is yet another crush.

I told you already, that I meet him every Thursday. But last Thursday was a bit special compared to another Thursdays. I only managed to be at least 10 feet away from him on another Thursdays. But this time was different. I got to stand less than 1 foot away from him. Yeah, that was close man! And I got to share some eye contact with him. Which made me generated some butterflies in my stomach. But I did maintain my sanity by the way.

What attracted me to him? I should admit that I really admire his charisma. He is a man full of knowledge. Simply not that type of other guys I used to have crush on before. He is humble, and has a nice sense of humor. The only thing is, I'm 90% positive that he has a girlfriend already. Well, that doesn't bother me at all because I know that he is completely out of my league and vice versa. This thing may not last any longer because I only have less than 8 Thursdays to see him. Hence, this guy is 99% will never be mine.

Well, that's all for now. I'm still looking forward for the next Thursday. :p

Tiara.

Suffocated

2009-01-23T15:12:00.002+08:00

Now I realize that most of my entries' titles began with "S". Never mind about that though. Wow, it's been a while I didn't blog. I have tried to, but while I was ready to write, my mind went completely thoughtless. Trust me. So I just decided to lay low and doing my EC droppings routine everyday. And I also want to thank each and everyone who are so kind to drop on my page, thanks a million.

A lot of things happened this week. Obama's inauguration day, my wisdom tooth gave me the greatest pain, and many more. Speaking about the wisdom tooth, arghhhh it makes me crazy! I couldn't sleep well and just couldn't eat properly. It is annoying and I do hope that it will go away in no time. I even took some aspirin but they didn't do any favor for me. The pain kept on staying right there.

Oh well, everyone is going home for the 1-week Chinese New Year break and I'm set to take my bus on Sunday as I'm gonna attend my driving class tomorrow. Haven't got any license yet as it is gonna be my first session. Hopefully I'll get to finish the class fast and get the license before June or July.

That's all for today. I know it is boring but that's it. LOL.

Tiara.

A To Z Tag

2009-01-15T01:48:00.005+08:00

Since I don't have anything much to post about, so I'm gonna take a break and do another tagging activity in which a blogger friend of mine, "Rare*JonRez" has inspired me to do so.

A. Attached or single? — Single
B. Best friend? — my family..
C. Cake or pie? — Can I have both? Cake - must be cheesecake and chocolate cake. Pie - Chicken or potato pie..
D. Day of choice? — Weekends, of course. You know what I mean.
E. Essential item? — Money
F. Favorite color? — Blue
G. Gummy bears or worms? — Gummy bears, I think so.
H. Hometown? — Kota Bharu, Kelantan, Malaysia. 'Kota Bharu' literally means 'New Castle' in English.
I. Favorite indulgence? — watching movies, sleeping, bowling
J. January or July? — July... especially July 2010!
K. Kids? — None, but I do love kids. Especially my horrible adorable 5 nephews!
L. Life isn’t complete without? — Family and friends.
M. Marriage date? — Haven't decide yet.
N. Number of magazine subscriptions? - None
O. Orange or apple? — Apple, especially green apple.
P. Phobias? — Israelians. Oh stop attacking Palestine already!
Q. Quotes? — "Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love." --- Emily Friehl in A Lot Like Love (2005)---
R. Reasons to smile? — Having good time with family and friends.
S. Season of choice? — Raining season, coz I'll have more reasons to sleep. Haha
T. Tag 5 people -
1. Adnilsa Aslinda
2. Miss Lav
3. Purple Cashmere
4. Azrin Nasir
5. BB Syasya

U. Unknown fact about me? - I don't like to be late.
V. Vegetable? — Cabbage.
W. Worst habit? — Napping in the middle of afternoon.
X. X-ray or ultrasound? - Did the 1st one, and someday will try the 2nd one.
Y. Your favorite food(s)? - Fastfoods! Although they shorten our life. Haha. Must be my mom's cooking.
Z. Zodiac sign — Taurus. I do believe in it, sometimes.

Oh then, this is also free for you to grab! Thanks and enjoy your day.

Tiara

Totti R.I.P

2009-01-03T03:40:00.004+08:00

This is Daddy's farewell tribute to his very much-loved cat. Died 2 days before Aidilfitri. My youngest brother, Ah Chai cried his tears out. It was a very tragic day. The whole family mourned on Kuntut's death.

It was a beautiful morning, when my sister-in-law found it laying motionlessly on the ground. We thought it was hit by a car or something, but there was no blood or wounds whatsoever on its body. For the record, Kuntut was born and bred in my house by a stray cat which was "accepted" by my parents earlier last year. We gave several nicknames to it, including Tot and Francesco Totti. LOL. My 3 little nephews, Izzat, Arshad and Ashraff loved to play with Tot whenever they came home. Tot was a very gentle cat, and it never got angry even though those kids were a bit rough while playing with it.

After Tot's death, Daddy said that he wouldn't care about any cats anymore. He would always mention about Tot almost everyday. A few months after that, Mummy told me that some new cats came to our house and Daddy fed them well, in which they began to reside in our house. But he will always say that no any other cat can replace Tot. Tot is a noble creature, to him and all of us.

Tiara.

Sorry and Goodbye 2008

2008-12-31T18:16:00.000+08:00

The very last day of 2008. I just did not realize it until I saw one of my classmate reading The Kosmo newspaper. It showed some recaps on what happened in the whole year. Also, some other classmates asked me about where I'm going to be tonight. At home, of course. There are gonna be lots of TV shows that I want to watch. Plus, I have always been a type of person who hates crowded and noisy places so there is no way I'm going to go to any New Year celebration events in KL.

My classes ended on 2 pm today. Went home and there was no one. Until now, I'm still alone. My 2 flatmates, who are currently on their clinical posting at hospital's pharmacies will only be home on 6 pm. Oh my empty stomach. Only ate a piece of currypuff at the cafe this morning. So I cooked some fried rice......... And then I got myself thinking about this whole year. Not a very good year for me, I thought. Haven't done anything noticeable. Nothing significant. Oh there's one. I bought a new laptop in June and some bastard stole it in October. Haha. And the most important person in my life still doesn't know about it. Mummy said NO, don't tell him. He will explode. Big trouble.

What else? What are my achievements? None, really. My CGPA is just OK. And I'm getting quite popular in the college. For god knows, what are the reasons. Never done anything bad though. Haha. I'm also happy for one thing, which is that I have made some good friends. And I also made some effort to maintain good relationship with everyone around me. Fair enough. Oh.. Haven't lose any weight yet. When will it be? I don't know, as I constantly eat and sometimes will be looking for food even though it is 3 am in the morning! Please 2009, help me to lose weight without having to fork out lots of money and energy.

Fell in love several times. No, they weren't exactly love. I would always get confused, and those cranky feelings would just go away in no time. I refused to think about it too much, as I really enjoy the single life although it gets lonely sometimes. Hmm.. another thing is, I'm gonna turn 22 next year. Oh I'm so scared of that number. It is big. Nooo... I'm getting older. I don't want to get old. Well, be positive. There is something coming up in 2009. Come July 2009, I'll finish my theory learning. Off we'll go to clinical posting until May 2010. I'm dyingly hoping for the internship at Kota Bharu District Health Office. Can't wait for that.

Lastly, again, please do not expect or accuse me to be at any New Year countdown events tonight because I won't. And 2009, welcome to my life. 2008, I'm terribly sorry. We will not see each other anymore after I wasted you for 365 days. And I'm looking forward to meet 2009, the year of many possibilities, be it negative or positive.

I'm struggling to move on....

Tiara.

Quickie

2008-12-07T15:01:00.001+08:00

Sorry to you dearest blog, for you had been abandoned for weeks. Your owner is slowly losing her mind due to unstable emotions and also the loss of her laptop several weeks ago.

Enough with the poor narration. Just wanna give a few updates here. 1 week to go to start the new semester. It is still raining here in Kota Bharu which gives me full comfort to just chill out and sleep. Haha.

Tomorrow is Eid-ul-Adha day. There is nothing much to do as I will probably stay at home all day long. Oh maybe my friend will come to fetch me to go to some open houses.. Hahaha..

That's all for today. Cannot be too serious about blogging anymore. The determination to blog has gone away together with the lost laptop.

Tiara.

Harder To Breathe

2008-11-17T01:00:00.001+08:00

Here I am again. Still trying to mend the pieces of my broken heart. Was kind of demotivated to keep on blogging lately. I just can't think of anything to write about.

I was logging on an online marketplace called Mudah.com.my just now where I saw some 2nd hand laptops which are just like mine and suddenly I felt so sad. Damn, why did you have to be taken by someone else? I kept on repeating that question over and over again while listening to some sappy love songs.

It was frustrating. Especially when I think about myself looking for a 2nd hand broadband modem for my late laptop 3 months ago. The price was still quite high at that time. But just now, I saw some cheap deals and I even smiled to myself before I realized that there is no need to buy the modem as I have got no laptop. Waaaarggh.

Hmm, by the way, I gotta sit for the final exam next week. Will be going back to my hometown maybe in the end of this month. I'm sure I'll find some peace there and then.

Tiara.

Where are you?

2008-11-06T18:33:00.003+08:00

This is one of the things in my life that I love the most. And somehow, it disappeared from my life last week. Some bastard stole it. And I will never forgive that bastard, whoever he is.

Do I have to tell you what I feel right now? Some words such as "frustrated", "gloomy", "sad", may sound appropriate. However, life should go on. I should try to move on.

Last but not least, lets hope that bastard will suffer then. I don't think I have some mercy to let him to be free. I hope he can't sleep at nights. He will have to wait for the payback time.

Lots of love to my late laptop.

Tiara.

Steady

2008-10-17T18:31:00.002+08:00

Hey what's up everybody? I'm truly sorry for not updating this blog regularly. The last entry was about 2 weeks ago. The truth is, I have been on a high speed throttle of chasing various assignments deadlines. Haven't got enough sleep lately. And most importantly, my beloved laptop is currently at my brother's place. He needs it to finish his thesis, and I was happy enough to let him borrow it.

So, I'm currently hoping that I will get my laptop back next week. Oh I'll be back in my hometown on 25th. Can't wait! Also, I'm currently having a very bad flu plus a sore throat and a very runny nose.LOL. My voice changed completely. I feel so uncomfortable to talk to other people, so I prefer to just sit back and keep quiet.

Let's see if I'll see you again next time. Bye.

Tiara.

Stupidity

2008-10-09T02:14:00.002+08:00

Woah.. don't get offended by the title.

It is just that I had a long thought about something. Should I spill it out? OK then.

Have you ever thought that you were falling in love with someone, and some moments later you had come to realize that it wasn't love at all?

I had. And trust me, it happened a few times already. The latest event, it happened to me some weeks ago. I thought I had fallen in love. But I just realized that it was just another stupid obsession. It is so hard to describe how did I find out the truth. But I really did.

I would always "fall in love" with someone who seemed to treat me nice. Even though I had just met him. But then, after being together with that someone for quite some time, I would always find out his weaknesses which could drive me mad. And automatically, I would grow tired of him and left him out in the cold.

It started well in the beginning. We were very close to each other. He even took me home to meet his parents. I began to wonder, what was the significance of him doing that? I gave a big thought about it at first. And then, he suddenly told me that he was already in a relationship. I was like "Oh damn!" Haha. Myself laughing at my own stupidity.

So guys, you better check and double check. Don't ever get confused by your own feelings. By the way, I'm trying hard to learn how to fix my system, so that I won't get confused anymore. Thanks for reading this entry. Just another thoughts of mine.

Tiara.

Still In The Mood

2008-10-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

Hey how is it going, everybody? I'm kind of sleepy right now. Oh yeah, I'm serious. Just arrived in Kuala Lumpur after a hectic 13 hours journey from Kota Bharu. Man, the traffic was bloody terrible! Myself and 2 of my classmates, Asih and Nik together with Nik's big brother, Abg Ngah were trapped in the baddest traffic ever! I certainly did expect that we were going to experience some traffic jams, but I wasn't aware that it could be that bad! By the way, I was having fun though. I'd always be the one who started every single lame conversations in the car, and they were all laughing at me. I was the one who would always get bored and spending my time disturbing other passengers in the car. Most importantly, we had a safe journey back here. Alhamdulillah.

I wish I had some photos of the journey to show you, but I haven't got any camera with me. And to be exact, I also didn't have any photos of Eid-ul Fitr celebrations. I wish I could tell you why. Haha. But yeah, I had a very good time especially with my family and friends.

The title suggested the truth. Haha, I'm still in the Raya mood. I haven't recovered from Raya fever, and I still miss my hometown. Nevertheless, I'll be there again on 25th this month. Woohooo! I'll work harder to feature some of the photos next time!

Tiara.

5 Days To Go..

2008-09-25T18:07:00.000+08:00

It is 5.56 am in the morning. I just got back from "sahur" a.k.a supper with some of my friends. Actually, we went to hang out at Cheras Downtown, which is one of the most popular midnight markets in Kuala Lumpur. Yeah, I prefer to call it a midnight market. Don't ask why. You have got to see it by yourself. It is truly a shopping heaven and as it is 5 days to go before Eid-ul Fitr, the place was packed by a sea of people and vehicles swarming every inch of the area.

I bought a "baju melayu" for my big brother which cost me a considerable RM65.00. Before that, my big brother had listed 4 colours for me to choose for his "baju melayu". Gold, maroon, pink or Manchester United red. I'd always thought that he would look great in maroon, so I decided to buy the maroon one. Not that he wouldn't look any better in those other 3 colours, but I thought maroon would enhance his fair skin. Haha. So there you go, maroon won! It wasn't hard for me to buy the "baju melayu", even though I never bought one before. That was because I had a bunch of guys, Saeful, Remy, Bidy and Ikhwan who were together with me looking for it. They had helped me so much in terms of choosing the suitable fabric and nice pattern for the "baju melayu". I also managed to get 3 beautiful "baju melayu" buttons for RM7.00. Credit to those lovely guys.

Oh and I also bought some cookies for the big day. Almond London, Pineapple Tarts, bla bla. And oh, guess what? I haven't bought my Raya clothes yet. Huwaaa. I haven't decided yet but I'd always thought about getting a black "baju kurung". I will pay a visit to Tunku Abdul Rahman Street on Saturday, so let's hope that I can find something nice for me to wear on the big day.

So, I would love to end this entry by wishing all of Muslims in the world a "Eid-ul Fitr Mubarak" or "Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri" to all Malaysian Muslims. For all the wrongdoings, I would like to ask for your forgiveness and let's hope this coming Eid-ul Fitr will strengthen our relationship.

Tiara.

Watching. Again.

2008-09-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, I managed to fix my ATM card this afternoon. Accompanied by my fellow classmates, Zila, Sally and Anna, we marched our way towards the Bukit Bintang/Sungai Wang Plaza/Berjaya Times Square shopping heaven. Eh, did I mention that we skipped a lecture session today, for the sake of going shopping? Yeah, the classmates that study together skip class together. Woohoo. Yeah, they were all excited to go shopping and today, for the 2nd consecutive time I ended up watching them shopping.

Not that I didn't have enough money, but I just remembered that I had promised my big bro that we will go shopping together in our hometown. But wait, there was a big catch! I went to Metrojaya to help Zila looking for a shirt for her dad. And I ended up buying a Valentino polo shirt for my Daddy. The shirt initially cost about RM99.90. But there was a 70% discount for the shirt, so I was so happy to buy it for my Daddy. I wish I could buy more shirts for my brothers as well but my mind was thinking about saving. Yes, I gotta save the money as best I can. There is a big thing coming up soon...

And then I went to accompany Anna to buy her new shoes. As she was looking for her stuff, I was fascinated by a toy shop. Saw a very cute remote-control toy car and I bought it for my nephew, Izzat. It has been a while since I last bought him a toy.

For all the things I bought for my loved ones, I would always hope that they would love them. Hey, I just can't wait to get home for Raya! Even so, I still have some unfinished business here in Kuala Lumpur. So I guess I'll be back home quite late this time.

Sorry for my broken English. I'm still learning. Anyway, see you soon.

Tiara.

Prelude

2008-09-23T01:13:00.000+08:00

Here we go again. I was just randomly checking out other blogs that happened to pass by my eyes when I found this useful tool called ENTRECARD.

This tool helps increase more visitors to your blog. You can find out more about it by clicking the link above. I'm still a newbie in this EntreCard thingy, so I can't give you more info about it.

Let's move on to other topic. Oh, I went for a walk in the Kuala Lumpur city yesterday afternoon. Was going to browse or maybe buying new clothes for Eid ul-Fitr celebration which is coming next week and guess what? My ATM card was rejected several times by the ATM machine. I didn't know why but it made me so pissed off. Damn, so I went home empty handed today. My friends who were out together with me practically bought their new clothes happily and I was just being a pathetic watcher.

So, I'm hoping that tomorrow or sooner I can go to the bank and fix this problem. I had not eaten properly for the past few days due to insufficient money. But there will be another problem. I have got lectures sessions these coming weekdays. I'm thinking of skipping those classes then. Hahaha.

Let's see if I could fix this messy situation. I have got lots of plans on my head, and I really wish that they can go on well. I'm signing off for now. See you later and thanks for stopping by.

Tiara.

I'm Finally In

2008-09-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

Hey what's up everyone?

Thanks and welcome to my blog. I've just moved out from my former blog. If you would like to check my previous blog, you can do so by clicking here.

For next entries, as a reader, you will most probably get to read what I am about to write. Haha. No offense. Actually, this blog will be more like a photo journal about various aspects of my life. I'm quite mad about digital camera nowadays and I'm sure this blog will be overloaded with lots of photos. Are you OK with that? Why not?

I gotta stop babbling now. It is not going to get us anywhere. And I gotta say thanks again for stopping by. If you have something to say to me, please leave me a message. Finally, have fun!

Tiara.